optimistic

i drove by a shitty car yesterday and felt alot better about my situation
thats terrible.

-saturday, had river party with andy, johnny, and matthew
-skovar and strawberry white zin
-went to the red barn
-danced around all cuhhhrazy
-stole drinks of lauren's free drink
-met some sophisticated dude
-hung out with everyone
-asked david if he sold glass to piss him off
-saved megan from this scary guy by telling him we were lesbians
-saw everyone i knew
-slapped some asses
-bathroom parties
-talking to the door guy and him tellin me to add
his band and how to fix my car's muffler ha

-sunday, bk with johnny
-river party UHGAIN
-took our blood pressure 46546546 times
-skovar handle #2 of the weekend
-i love red amp!
-met up with andy and matthew
-matthew, johnny, and andy copied los campesinos




-went to see wall-E, best movie everrrr
-"WALL-EEE" ..."Evaaaaa"
-andy bought popcorn and we all mooched
-went to victor's
-we had dance party2008
-vodka and orangeade is the new black
-me and lauren gave eachother lap dances
-me and victor paraded around in moo moos
-"i only have 2 moo moos."
-we had photoshoot and attempted to have a collaborative painting
-we didnt get around to it ha
-me and lauren sat on the sidewalk and chatted
-went home

hellaaa shitty

wed, thurs, fri is sort of a blur
some dumb chicken fucker busted my car window and stole my stereo and ipod
it does sorta make me wanna kill myself when i drive around in silence and part of my window breaks off a little more everytime i close the door. But i have to be greatful that those assholes didnt harm me or anyone else. AAANYWAY ive been in a quiet mood lately. I can't help it. I'm just really pensive and stressed constantly. Its totally not like me. I'm a mellow person, it weirds me out.

Friday night was ignition show. i hated andy and walked out on his show
we started up the "andy sucks" chant. EVERYONE was in it. I felt bad but it was way funny and it was all out of good fun. We went down to JD's landing and had a ghettoass margarita for 6 bucks a piece. the bartender was an idiot. went back to ignition hung out with strangers and took pics. Drove back to PD and me, lauren, carlos, and linda sang selena at the top of our lungs. Went over to the UN house. it was chill. Wonder how tonight will turn. We'll probably end up at the red barn.

dsghkjs

MONDAY
-didnt leave my house :]

TUESDAY
-hung out with lauren
-had a cran and vodka
-made music
-went to carlos'
-la cadena
-we all took shots
-me. lauren, and carlos went swimming in boxers and a shirt
-me and lauren devised a plan for me to marry rich and get us plastic surgery
-me and carlos had a mini photoshoot
-went to the UN house
-me and victor shared a blue lollipop and split up the gum at the end haha
-me and robbie made ugly faces at eachother
-i hung out with cats and one of them jumped out of a high window!
-we all talked about movies
-i stole eddddgarrr's hat and wore it
-edgarrrr admitted he hated me cause i gave him the wrong name back when i was in high school and there were shows at olympia hah
-dropped carlos off and went homee
-had a drunk conversation with my mom and when she asked why i smelled like alcohol, i said "mom! i always smell that way!" and continued my story hahaha

Strawberry Zin weekend

updates

Lemon cleanse lasted til thursday, where did my willpower go?
i had 2 slices of pizza and got drunk
i lost a good 6 pounds though

-walmart party with carlos, bolin, johnny, and andy [i was sober!]
-next night jeremy's place, an interesting outing?
-i recorded videos of us gestering BJ's
-bolin kinda just didnt contribute to the video at all ha
-wilber guarded his snickers candy bar like a knight
-friday went to Matt's show party
-Eddddgarrr, victor was funny
he wore a coral blazer unbottoned with no shirt
-I fell back in love with abey
-we had dance party. wilber was my partner and carlos was lauren's
-i hung out with CJ!
-we drank strawberry zin and took myspace pics like weirdos
-left austin a very drunk voicemail ha
-saturday night, went to dannys 21st party
-ive come to realize this is a good year
cause everyone is turning 21 and theres been partys up the wazooo
-saw my BFF chris, we need BFF charms already!
-hung out with oscar and hoarded the pizza and breadsticks
-me and janelle laughed at her coconut rum apparently "the taste is REAL"
-went to circle K bought chips, i was bummed cause i added too much cheese
-Met up with andy at the park
-all three of us sharaded sexual positions haha
-andy licked my hand GROSSSS
-we wrestled andy, he won
-we used the grass like napkins
-i sprayed my smart water all over andy
-he tried to walk home to try and walk off the alcohol
but something tells me a 20 sec walk wasnt gonna do it
plus WHAT IF HE GOT MUGGED!!
-me and lauren went back to her house and lurked it up on myspace
-then passed out
-Sunday i went to hollywood with lynne, her boyfriend, andy
-went to BK
-we bought like 3 thousand chasers and drank at amoeba
-bought 4 movies i never even saw before, im broke now!
-walked down sunset
-saw a man dancing in a window with a speedo
-went to american apparel, shmoozed the manager
-hung out with fake movie characters
-took a picture of jamie foxx and john ritter's star. I LOVE THEM!
-ate jalapeno chips
-went homeeee

wayward weekend

THE TRUE SCARY STORY

I was having a dream about being in a park with friends. I woke up, opened my eyes, began to feel 2 hands pressing down on me. I could not breathe, i was in a definite state of panic. The room began to turn upside down, faster and faster, the room would spin. My eyes open the whole time, I began to hear a deep voice. I could not make out the words, nor do I know for sure it was english. This continued for a few minutes. Finally, i was back on my bed right-side up and the pressure jerked away. My room became unbearably cold, take in to consideration that my room is the hottest room in the whole house and it is summer. I got the chills all over my body. I was lying there paralyzed not sure what to make of the whole situation. I finally mustered the strength to get up and leave the room. I have never been in such a state. I do not believe in god or the devil. I do not understand the whole situation, however i know for a fact it wasn't a dream, i never once closed my eyes. Completely sober, completely awake.

Next day...
-slept during the day
-family BBQ
-watched the lakers game at beer hunter
-trillion instant replays of kobe's dunk
-strawberry margarita
-walmart party
-watched daria at andy's house
-drove andys car to my house
-he passed out for like an hour outside my house
haha
-the light got shut off for maintenence reasons from 10PM to 6AM
we were frying our asses off. i dint sleep once again :(
-woke up for work at 8

My blogs are going downhill. yuck
plus im on a cleansing fast for 14 days so i wont be having H 3 0 encounters
LAME

staying in on a saturday?

during the course of a few days i have,

-gone to the movies with wilber and andy to see kung fu panda
-skovar party
-show in palm springs
-emotional outbreaks with carlos and lauren
-skovar
-stealing toms brass monkey
-met up with andy, tom, and austin
-JD's landing carlos hooking us up with maragaritas
-drunk dialing brandon
-a couple more people met up
-walking down the strip
-drunk dialing alan
-arguing with andres
-getting jack in the box
-somehow spilling buffalo sauce down my window
-carlos talking to a bum and me and lauren not even being phased
-drunk billion hour phone conversation with andy


and now i am looking at scholarships, apartments, and furniture

everyday is the same?

-worked
-napped
-dinner chimichanga
-carlos'
-UH spark
-hung out with carlos andy and bolin
-expediaed flights
-amtraked train rides
-good life talks with carlos
-went home